This is something that's been on my mind for a while.
I personaly belive, that if you know something about yourself, something that's key to your nature, you should admit it to yourself and be that way.
Like, let's say you were gay or something.
I've seen alota people who were closeted. Sad, depressed, often suicidal. Some try to 'convert' themselves. Some get married and try to live a lie. I'm sure that many have been able to make it work. But, they're not happy, they can't be happy because they are living a lie. Oftentimes people in this situation cheat on their spouses, trying to give themselves an outlet without damaging their facade. It just hurts everyone in the end.
Someone should be able to pick what kind of life they want.
And just because some one does something stupid once, especially when they are drunk doesn’t mean anything.
I’m sorry you’re feeling the way you are, the holidays can be hard sometimes, but I hope you’re not taking this where I think you are.
Maybe I should start a post about being honest with other people since you cant seem to keep a promise.